This past week I have been working heavily on the website. It’s been my first and last week in quarantine, so I wanted to take advantage of the time off and really build the foundation on the website.
Much of my website consists of following my curiosity and having a place to compile my findings. I’m intentional as I know this will be a resource for others someday, which leads to consuming tons of content and deciding what is best for the website.
I searched, “Professional masculine of center queer women of color.” Of course, limited content appears. I scroll and find a couple of things to click on to post. Copy URL>Teardrop>Video>Video URL>Apply>Save. Scroll. Scroll. Scroll. Just as I was about to give up, I come across this image and headline.
Neither male nor female: Why some nonbinary people are 'microdosing' hormones
Marisa Rivas never felt comfortable living as a woman, but doesn’t identify as a man either.
It somehow lead me to this YouTuber where I immersed myself in their content, until midnight.
@megemiko
After researching and watching more, I had to adjust my mission statement. This information alone was the missing piece for the past two years and what held me back from launching sooner. Transparently, I was not and still not educated on the trans community, let alone the queer community. I’ve strayed away from it over the years because I never felt like I fully belonged at places like Pride, but I didn’t feel like I belonged at protests either. So when making the decision on who this organization would be for, I claimed that I couldn’t guide (young) trans folks, because I didn’t identify with the community. Silly me, I have a lot to learn, but that’s been the best part of this website. I am still a young Tomboi with questions and finally have a place to put my answers.
It makes me wonder, what if I made an effort to be apart of the community over the years? Would TMBINTL have launched sooner? Would I be a different person? How would my story be different? I can’t dwell on it, but I can say this…I’m excited to get back out there to learn and be apart of the queer community! <3
Back to the core of this blog. I’m more into the idea of micro-dosing than I thought. To be honest, I never thought of myself as trans, but after hearing another born-female queer API (Asian/Pacific Islander) share their story, it makes me question my gender identity. It literally blew my mind. I still have research to do, but maybe this could be an option in the future.